Down n' out, worn out and tired

Ugh!
I'm tired, being a parent is so rough. I get home from work and I have to work at home. When do I get to rest? I don't. Today was a stressful rough day and it took a lot outta me. I feel like collapsing and wish I could take the rest of the week off. Not to mention the fact that I did not lose weight this week, instead I gained a pound. I know why already, I'm so upset with myself and I just need motivation, I have none. All I want to do is come home and do nothing. I don't want to work out because i am lacking the energy. I hate the way I am feeling right now. I am excited to be starting weight watchers hopefully next week, maybe talking to others like me will help because doing it by myself is a struggle. It's like I stay with it for a minute then I drop it and crash. Anywho I can't wait til our adult vacation, it's greatly needed for us, I'm hoping it will just rejuvenate me. Until next week, thanks for taking the time out to read.


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Morbidly Obese

MORBIDLY OBESE
I see those 2 words and they scared the crap outta me. Who would of thought that I would fall into that category? Not me. It's scary to see those words and its just a wake up call that I really need to step it up. I said I needed motivation and those 2 words should be it. I swear I should post that up everywhere as a reminder. Those 2 words make me cringe every time I see them. I don't want to die this way, I gotta get healthy so I won't see those 2 words anymore. They scare me to death. This week starts the Couch to 5K again. I'm on my way to not being MORBIDLY OBESE!

ANNOUNCEMENTS

Weight check in: I am the same weight as I was last week, its a little disappointing but at least it wasn't a gain.

Have a good week!

This is my 3rd and last time trying to post my 1st 2011 blog! ARGH!

So I was going to start this blog off with saying, I failed, I'm ashamed, I gained weight, I did bad, but I decided not to. 2010 is over and I refuse to focus on it.

It's 2011, everybody asks what are your resolutions? Well....I don't do resolutions because I never stick to my resolutions. I am the kind of person that will set goals, I like to set goals to where I know that I WILL attempt to succeed in whatever goals I set. So my goal for this year is to better myself as a whole. Yes I am working on trying to lose weight but there are other things I have in mind when it comes to thinking about myself. I'm shocked that I am even thinking about myself because I tend to put myself last, yeah I know I'm not supposed to but hey my boys are so important to me, they always come first. My plans to better myself involve, weight loss (along with exercise and healthy eating), that comes first because I want to live to see my kids grow up, set an example to my children that being healthy is important. I too want to be healthy, I want to see myself as pretty and I just want to have the whole package with self-esteem and confidence in it too. Second is I want my girlie back, when I was dating Jason I used to wear dresses, skirts, cute girlie tops and makeup and wear my hair down. Now, years later, with 2 kids, I wear sweat pants and Jason's t-shirts :-O I don't want to be like that anymore so that change is definitely happening as we speak, obviously I am a broke ass but I'm making due, lol.  Oh and I know that some of this sounds like a repeat of other blogs but its just my goals and I plan on sticking to it. Don't worry the other blogs won't sound as repetitive.

Other things I have in the works are the fact that I got a promotion, it all started with drama that I won't mention and I think they had another reason why they promoted me but I won't go there and I'll be happy that it finally happened. I am now pretty happy to go to work & I'm more motivated to continue doing the awesome job that I already do.

In other news, things may be changing this year, I won't go into details because nothing is set in stone but I'm hoping everything will work out just fine. Like my dad says, "remember the 2 P's, prayer and planning", I'm definitely going to keep that in mind so we won't have any surprises.

Alright I'm going to end this and I'm not going to end this by saying I promise to blog every week but I will say it is my intention to blog as much as I can because it helps me relieve things and its kind of a hobby for me, I'll try to make it as exciting as I can.

ANNOUNCEMENTS

Last week I lost a lb. and this week my goal was to lose 2lbs. I'll keep that part of my journey updated.

Have an awesome week!