The beginning of the end of my FAT

So I have been overweight all of my life. I have been made fun of, abused, physically and verbally in school and I am so done with it. I started my weight loss journey about 3 weeks ago and have been doing ok so far. I have been on so many diets and have tried so many pills and after about a week, I drop the ball. But I am just tired of it now, I want to be able to go into a store and not have to go to the special sizes AKA plus sizes. I want to be healthy for not only myself but for my family. I want to be healthy enough to have another child who I can watch grow up and I want to be able to see their kids. I don't want to die early, I want my blood pressure to go back to normal without having to take medication. I want to be in a marathon, I want to job a few miles without dying (no seriously I would die) I've attempted it and almost died going a half a block. I want my back fat to go away so I can wear super tight shirts that show off my boobs, LOL.

(Mind thought: Wait I think my boobs are only made of fat, so I may lose those too.)

I don't want anymore fat ass thighs, or jiggly arms, so not attractive! I've been so frustrated about it and decided that its not motivation i need from other people, its my own motivation I need for myself. So I finally did something, no I didn't start any diet, I just started doing the right thing, eating right, couting some calories but not obsessively, just counting to make sure i don't go over. I've been taking walks everyday for 45 minutes and not snacking on bad food. A snack to me was s a double cheeseburger, now it happens to be popcorn or a salad or string cheese and some turkey breast slices. And so far I have lost a total of 10 lbs. Wow! I'm not going to put my weight on here because its embarrassing, but every Sunday Jason and I weigh in, and I will post our progress every Sunday so you the reader can celebrate with us.

(Mind thought did I even introduce Jason into this blog?)

By the way Jason and I both are trying to lose weight, his goal is a little different but sort of the same, he basically wants to be healthy so he can live long and watch his kids grow up but his ultimate goal is to be able to walk around with his shirt off (I love it!!). Goodnight stay tuned for the weigh in tomorrow.

Mommy, mommy, mommy, mommy

Being a Mom is so hard and tiring. No I didn't just figure that out at all. I'm sitting here telling Jordan to do HUD homework while my 5 month old is fussy and teething. It's rough. It's like I need extra time to just relax but don't have that time at all. Today was a really rough day and i get home only to be working again. Damn I definitely can't wait for my mini vacation, it's adult only and it's definitely needed.


In other news....
I didn't lose any, I'm feeling a little low, frumpy and lazy and definitely need more motivation and guidance. I start weight watchers hopefully next week, I'm excited to chat with people who feel like me.

I'll check in next week. Thanks for taking the time to read.


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