My 1st Appointment was to make appointments (short and sweet)

Update regarding my appt.

My first appt at association of south bay surgeons was kind of lame. They checked my weight and took a snapshot of me like a mugshot and then I was taken to a lady who set up 2 appts. for me, one for an orientation and one for a one on one with my surgeon. I asked the lady if she knew when my insurance would tell me if its approved and she said if I got this far I will probably be approved. So I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I'm not going through all of this for nothing. Wish me luck!

Work life

So I finally figured out why I get so stressed out at work, its not what I do for the Corp. office and its not what I do for my crazy manager. It's what I do to help people out and when something happens frustration happens, upset happens and I feel like its taken out on me. I swear if you don't think I'm capable of doing something then just take me away and let me just focus on something else. I know I am a good worker and I know I do my job well. I may have stuff to work on as an assistant manager but I know that what I do should be appreciated, I get that appreciation from some but never from the cause of my stress. Oh well its cool.....I'm done venting now, tomorrow is another day.

What do they think?



Change is going to come and what do my family and friends think about it?

My Husband

When I told my husband about it, he wasn’t against it but he wanted to go with me to ALL appts. And here what is exactly going to be going on. After that he’ll make the decision if he’s ok with it too. His point is that he doesn’t want anything bad to happen; he doesn’t want to lose his wife and etc. I totally understand what he is feeling.

My Mom & Dad

I told Mom about what my decision was and surprisingly she wasn’t against it. She told me to pray about it and whatever I decided she would be there for me. At first I didn’t even want to tell her at all but this time I told her about my research that I’ve been doing for it and why I made the decision and she was so positive. We both would practically die if we lost each other. My Well I haven’t had the chance to talk to him about it……well…I actually don’t know if I want to tell him about it at all. I’m kind of scared of his response. I shouldn’t be because my Dad loves me and is always there for me through whatever I go through but I’m kind of just not telling him until I find out details for sure and if I am even approved. So Dad will have to wait.

My co-workers

I’ve been telling some people at work about it, only the people that are close to me because I don’t think its anybody else’s business. My close co-workers are very supportive and if I get it done they are going to be my support too. At work we tend to snack, snack, snack and snack, so with support from them too I know I’ll be strong.

My friends

I’ve only told a few friends, I don’t have many friends so I guess I should say that I’ve told 2 friends. My 2 friends asked a lot of questions basically the usual what is it, why do you want it, do you feel you need it and what are the common side effects. Since I’ve been researching for so long I had the answer to EVERY question. I was fully prepared for their negativity and their thoughts of being against it but surprisingly they both had my back and said if I needed anything during the process just let them know.

Dr. Takahashi

My 1st doctor’s appt. is tomorrow. I’m anxious and excited at the same time. The last couple of weeks my weight has been like a Yo Yo, up 3lbs. down 2 lbs. up 1 lb. down 3 lbs. It’s so annoying!

I appreciate all the thoughts, support of prayers from my family and friends and we’ll see what the doc says tomorrow.

Until next time, have a great week!



Short and Sweet RN/LVN

So....I have an appt with the adviser on the 19th to discuss applying for MSMC in January of 2012. I went to the information session and learned that its going to be quite rough especially having a family and also supporting the family too. It's what I want to do though, I've wanted to do it ever since I was a little kid and didn't do it because I'm an idiot who just assumed that I wouldn't be able to do it. It's a new start and I'm ready for the challenge. I was think maybe I could start out small but going to school to be a licensed vocational nurse but I don't know, we'll see.

Depression turning into happiness.

I think I'm in a state of minor depression. I'm going through a hard part of life and I can't wait til it passes. I'm staying positive no matter how hard it is to. Within the next few months I will be making a decision regarding part of my life. It will be my own decision and I'm hoping people will understand why I am doing it and just be there for me. I'm also planning on going to school for nursing because it's time for me to get down to business, do what I love and make good money for doing what I love. I'm excited for these new changes and I cannot wait til I can get the ball rolling.


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Down n' out, worn out and tired

Ugh!
I'm tired, being a parent is so rough. I get home from work and I have to work at home. When do I get to rest? I don't. Today was a stressful rough day and it took a lot outta me. I feel like collapsing and wish I could take the rest of the week off. Not to mention the fact that I did not lose weight this week, instead I gained a pound. I know why already, I'm so upset with myself and I just need motivation, I have none. All I want to do is come home and do nothing. I don't want to work out because i am lacking the energy. I hate the way I am feeling right now. I am excited to be starting weight watchers hopefully next week, maybe talking to others like me will help because doing it by myself is a struggle. It's like I stay with it for a minute then I drop it and crash. Anywho I can't wait til our adult vacation, it's greatly needed for us, I'm hoping it will just rejuvenate me. Until next week, thanks for taking the time out to read.


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Morbidly Obese

MORBIDLY OBESE
I see those 2 words and they scared the crap outta me. Who would of thought that I would fall into that category? Not me. It's scary to see those words and its just a wake up call that I really need to step it up. I said I needed motivation and those 2 words should be it. I swear I should post that up everywhere as a reminder. Those 2 words make me cringe every time I see them. I don't want to die this way, I gotta get healthy so I won't see those 2 words anymore. They scare me to death. This week starts the Couch to 5K again. I'm on my way to not being MORBIDLY OBESE!

ANNOUNCEMENTS

Weight check in: I am the same weight as I was last week, its a little disappointing but at least it wasn't a gain.

Have a good week!

This is my 3rd and last time trying to post my 1st 2011 blog! ARGH!

So I was going to start this blog off with saying, I failed, I'm ashamed, I gained weight, I did bad, but I decided not to. 2010 is over and I refuse to focus on it.

It's 2011, everybody asks what are your resolutions? Well....I don't do resolutions because I never stick to my resolutions. I am the kind of person that will set goals, I like to set goals to where I know that I WILL attempt to succeed in whatever goals I set. So my goal for this year is to better myself as a whole. Yes I am working on trying to lose weight but there are other things I have in mind when it comes to thinking about myself. I'm shocked that I am even thinking about myself because I tend to put myself last, yeah I know I'm not supposed to but hey my boys are so important to me, they always come first. My plans to better myself involve, weight loss (along with exercise and healthy eating), that comes first because I want to live to see my kids grow up, set an example to my children that being healthy is important. I too want to be healthy, I want to see myself as pretty and I just want to have the whole package with self-esteem and confidence in it too. Second is I want my girlie back, when I was dating Jason I used to wear dresses, skirts, cute girlie tops and makeup and wear my hair down. Now, years later, with 2 kids, I wear sweat pants and Jason's t-shirts :-O I don't want to be like that anymore so that change is definitely happening as we speak, obviously I am a broke ass but I'm making due, lol.  Oh and I know that some of this sounds like a repeat of other blogs but its just my goals and I plan on sticking to it. Don't worry the other blogs won't sound as repetitive.

Other things I have in the works are the fact that I got a promotion, it all started with drama that I won't mention and I think they had another reason why they promoted me but I won't go there and I'll be happy that it finally happened. I am now pretty happy to go to work & I'm more motivated to continue doing the awesome job that I already do.

In other news, things may be changing this year, I won't go into details because nothing is set in stone but I'm hoping everything will work out just fine. Like my dad says, "remember the 2 P's, prayer and planning", I'm definitely going to keep that in mind so we won't have any surprises.

Alright I'm going to end this and I'm not going to end this by saying I promise to blog every week but I will say it is my intention to blog as much as I can because it helps me relieve things and its kind of a hobby for me, I'll try to make it as exciting as I can.

ANNOUNCEMENTS

Last week I lost a lb. and this week my goal was to lose 2lbs. I'll keep that part of my journey updated.

Have an awesome week!